Lost

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I was lost, then you found me, alone freezing dark ready to give up

You were the blanket that saved me

You wrapped me in warmth

Threads woven together filled with love

Feeling returned to my toes then my legs and through my entire body

My heart began to beat and I realized this feeling the one so unfamiliar was where I belong

We became friends, close, our bonds couldn’t be broken

We were strong like that bridge, the one connecting the island

Where memories were made

The smiles that crossed our faces full of life and happiness

The promise of youth and naivety optimism that no one else could match.

The promises of our friendship

It said even on a rainy day this is what we have. When the road is cold and dark there will be a reason to carry on

That you have a reason and a purpose so don’t give up

But now that purpose is gone

Banished by words of no more and goodbye

This is over and farewell

What more reason do I have?

If I have no reason to stay then that is the best reason to go.

But see I have a reason to stay, it’s you.

The friendship that means more than life

And you push me away, so hard and fast like a tornado devastating cities.

Beyond repair.

Broken and left behind

Sometimes the wind blows and I hear the words you spoke, “Let it go. Save yourself the pain, Let it go”

And I yell back at the wind, “I like feeling this pain, this pain let’s me know I’m alive. It let’s me know who hurt me. It lets me move on.”

And my heart breaks again

The confetti stains red as color runs from each sliver

Red engulfs everything, the floor, the walls, the ceiling.

Anything left in this hollow shell of a human—red.